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Thursday, December 31, 2009

How Do I See Me?

Peaceful, fragrant, in love with God, knowing Him more. In a clean home that smells good…clean air, no excess of dust….one cat, maybe two…with my husband, candles burning throughout the house regularly, not cheap candles but Febreeze…Yankee even…Home Interiors…J. Crew sweaters, book tours, sharp hair…bangin’ brows, healthy fit body…Ann Taylor skirts, shoes of many options. Clear skin, bright eyes, always smiling, even when I’m not…lovely voice, three children…at least…supporting my husband’s business. Live shows…jazz music, traveling to see Jon in L.A., supporting the Kappa House in Philly. Degree on wall…counseling young people…loving on them whenever they need love, which is always…long walks with my husband…closing our first home, furnishing our first home…closing our second, furnishing…warm colors in the living areas…blues and purples in the bedroom…candles…ceiling fans…book of poetry…writing daily…marathon…pain and pleasure…accomplishment…reading for enjoyment. Blue water…monthly facials…Inhale…exhale…breath deep…inhale exhale…yoga expert…Pilates warrior…I’m good…I’m toned…I’m in shape. Singing, painting…yard work…visiting girlfriends…feeding the homeless…private parties…VIP…wine connoisseur…wow, I correctly spelled connoisseur…lol laughing, loving, preaching…art on walls…fire burning…visiting family…sending them money. Giving money to strangers…taking them to eat. RL…in silver…Options…standing tall…confidence…sharing my energy…positivity. Sunday mornings…inhale exhale…fruits and veggies…healthy…bike rides in the park…FAMILY. Home in Riverside Park at home…enjoying snow in Upstate NY…healthy hands…strong hands…water fountain. Trickling water…weekends in Savannah…Charleston…NYC…Chicago…DC…LA…Some random town in the country…the will of God. Speaking at conferences…collaborating on research…in sociological journals…swimming…music makes me high…

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I AM BEAUTIFUL!!!

I am beautiful.

I am grateful for my beauty and for God allowing me to be who I am...I am not perfect. Physicaly, I'm overweight and my skin is sensitive and dry, and there's more...too much to mention really...

Mentally, I tend to be too emotional, others can see it at times and even I can see it on occasion when I know I've taken something too far...

Spiritually, yeah. There is ALWAYS more that I can give the Lord. Always...It is amazing the revelation u receive when u actually READ ur Bible and EXPECT to hear from the Lord. The most simple things become so profound. If only I'd read more/listen more/see more...of You, Lord.

I am beautiful...

And I know this, generally speaking. Even at the times that I don't feel the part, God has a way of reminding me to play the part. To play MY part...and that my part doesn't include negativity and self-doubt.

I am beautiful...

Physically, my eyes are bright, my smile is wide, my thighs are curvatious and even during the winter, my skin glows *scratches back*...at the times that I don't feel "pretty" or "fly" or "fit", He sends someone along to express their admiration for my smile, eyes, my hair.

Mentally, I am stable. I am bright, charismatic, energetic, lovable, smart, funny (although cheesey at times! I love corny jokes) and always thinking...When mentally I feel a mess, and wonder, "how on EARTH am I supposed to inspire others when I can't move myself to write, workout, etc...?" God sends someone my way that is in need and allows me to give the words to encourage...

Spiritually, I am redeemed. That ALONE is enough to make me beautiful. I am in love with Christ...I am continuously gaining understanding of Christ and His life and His ministry...I have acknowledged my own calling...now to just walk in it. Obedience and wisdom.When I feel like I belong in hell, or oh, I must already be there, God opens the door for me to tell someone about Him! ME!? Lord, You are good and Your mercy endureth forrreeeevvverrrr! Lol

I say all of this to say...

I am beautiful.

If I am made in the likeness of God and He is the Creator of all things, then I am a creator...I am a creator of beauty being that beauty is within me...Thank u lord.You too, are beautiful...today and always. Try to see yourself through the eyes of God...and allow Him to use your beauty to show someone else how beautiful they are.